Passionate You are in touch with your emotions, and sometimes you react before you think. The good news: you don’t tamp down your feelings. The bad news: you sometimes say or do things that you later wish you could take back. You do not live your life on an even keel; you do not go for long periods without experiencing some mood swings. Introspective You like your own company;...
My misery is so addictive.
Sometimes I'm just like...
Why do I have a boyfriend? I was always the crazy homo cat lady…
It just brings back bad memories. I feel like I’m a heavy burden. As if I’m holding you hostage and unwillingly tying you down. I feel like some sort of road block, like you would be so much better and flourish if you could just get around me. I feel guilty. You feel this immense struggle to stay committed, and it’s just so easy to me. This isn’t helping.
I guess I feel weird because you tell me it’s so hard but I find it quite easy.
Dear Future Boyfriend,
notestomyfutureboyfriend: Commitment is what I need; I don’t need another painful relationship that’ll just toss me off and eat me inside. I’ll always fight for you, I’ll always chase after you, I’ll always be here with open arms, just promise me that you won’t break me apart. I have a fragile heart, that has many imperfections. I’m just wishing that you’ll look pass through my flaws and love me...
You say it in a way that makes me feel like burden. As if you regret being with me and that I should feel bad about tying you down. Partly, it’s my own insecurities but the fact that you try to hide it and I have to pry it out of you only makes it worse.
Perhaps I’m just too insecure to be in a relationship.
It isn’t what you say. It’s how you say it.
Sometimes I feel like a burden.